Beginning again

Five months ago, I made a promise. I pledged to donate money for every pound I lost by the end of the year. Others joined the pledge, either with donations or support or a weight loss pledge of their own.

I’m here to tell you that I’ve failed. But that’s not the end of the story.

Since I made that promise, I overate at church camp. I let my workouts slide while we visited family in Illinois two different times. I ate “comfort food” after our basement flooded and I didn’t want to deal with the reality of clean-up and loss. And I took the month of November to write a novel.

So I find myself here, the 1st of December, having made negative progress, closer to 200 pounds than I’ve ever been when not pregnant or just having had a baby. Yet I’m resolved to not give up.

I restarted my twice-a-week 5 a.m. workouts this morning. And even though Christmas is coming, and sweets and goodies abound, I’m determined to keep it under control.

Can I just say what I’m thinking?

I DON’T WANT TO BE FAT!

There. That’s my fear. I see the misery in the faces of Biggest Loser contestants and I know that not much separates me from the downward spiral they’ve experienced.

Maybe that’s too dramatic. Or maybe it’s realistic. I just know that I’m not getting any younger and losing weight isn’t going to get any easier.

So.

I’m restarting my quest to lose weight and raise money for widows and orphans in Liberia. And I’m extending my deadline to March, at least.

“What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down.” — Mary Pickford, actress. (Also similar to a Chinese proverb.)

I have fallen. But I will get up.

I will check in monthly, here, with my progress.

Stay tuned.

And help inspire me.

How do you keep your weight loss goals?

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7 thoughts on “Beginning again

  1. Lisa,

    I am so with you. I keep yo-yoing all over the place! Must gain control of this…it’s so easy to “wait until after Christmas” but ugh. Why? So I have ten MORE pounds to lose?

    Good words today. We can do it! 🙂

  2. I feel your pain. In the past, keeping a food journal and/or planning what to eat each day really helped me to stay focused. I’ve tried Weight Watchers online and at meetings and lost weight after Connor’s birth and on Jenny Craig before the pregnancy. I was only successful on WW once, the rest of the time all of that points and tracking seemed too complicated. It has been so very long since I’ve been successful in any weight loss.
    Not only am I pushing maximum density — as my ex-husband would say — but I’m nearing a milestone birthday. And boy, oh boy, am I feeling it. The older I get, the more difficult it becomes to lose weight and the easier it is to gain. I recently began a seasonal job that has me on my feet, walking and lifting, for up to 40 hours per week. Even though I haven’t increased my calorie intake, after five weeks I’ve seen only a couple pounds difference on the scale.
    Another complication is that my wonderful boyfriend and I are more likely to lead each other astray than encourage good habits. We also have very, very, very different ideas about food and nutrition. He believes that what a person eats doesn’t matter, that it’s all in the calories. I believe that it’s a combination of both, and that the more nutritious the food the better, and that eating throughout the day, rather than all at once in the evening, also matters. It seems there’s always a “wait until after” excuse, too.
    There are four weeks left to the year and I am determined to not gain weight during the holiday season. Fortunately, my oven is unpredictable now so I won’t be able to bake any holiday goodies.

  3. Get some friends to join you and that will make you accountable. Get together once a week and weigh. It is easier to do with friends. It takes help from God. He will be your anchor in this trip. I love you and I continue my pledge to you.

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